Chapter 13: Feelings

Unknown number:

Make sure that you an go home safe

You're dead!

You're making me worry

I ignore the messenges and put my phone inside my body bag. I call Mom earlier, she was so busy so
it's only a quick call.

I'm here right now at the bazaar, amazed by a lot of products. Everything I saw simply made me happy.
Uwooo!!

"Cath?" it's a rush call someone behind me, a voice like chasing me since a while ago.

I spun around to check whose it then my lips formed an 'O' as I see Ivor.

"Hey! What a coincidence" I said

"Well, ahmm... I-I did follow you here!" a candid answer it was while fixing his hair back and look away
like a shy kid.

"Well, since you're here we can enjoy together and also, be my photographer" I laugh a bit and he
smile.

"Sure, my pleasure"

"Why did you follow me anyway?" I asked, waiting him to catch up since I walk first.

"I just want to know you" he answer, admitting the he followed me.



"Ows! Hey! kyaaaaah! That's beautiful" I said pointing at the cute black and pink cat costume.

owh? That's good for a cat themed birthday party though! I love it.

"You love cats?" he ask

"I did" I answer while still looking at the cat stuff. I only saw that before at online shops and now it's
real...and beautiful.

"I'm allergic to cats" he informed

"That's sad bro!" I react and roam around.

I give him my phone and as I told him earlier...he became my cool photographer and he's good at it.

He take a lot of good pictures of mine around beautiful things like teddy bears and some cool stuffs.

He's that kind of fun to be with.

I buy new sweater and oversized shirt, less expensive yet it has a good quality.

"Let's eat?" aya ni Ivor.

My stomach already grumbling since I and Raze only eat berry flan, so I nod.

"What do you want?My treat!" I look at the tarpaulin where the menu was there.

"Can I have natchus? Footlong and hmmm! Ice cream! I won't be shy anymore!" I said cheerfully and
smile widely.

"Sure!" he order and eat at the bench, telling some interesting topics that maybe our common
obsession.



He love to watch anime, an otaku to be exact and I love to watch anime too.

He's very different, a kind of man that can comfort you easily. His smile were genuine and everything
he say were pure and true, I feel it.

"It's already 4:00pm, I have to go home" I said and wave my hand.

"Wait! can I send you home?"

"A-aah?"

"Can I?"

"Sure! Actually I agree because I don't know exactly how to go home." I shyly said and show a peace
sign.

"You're so cute" he's smiling as he pinch my cheeks.

Eh? so, he's a damn rich? I'm in front of Mercedes Benz and he open the door of his car gentlemanly.

I tell him the address and on the way we're talking about why he join in the games competition
yesterday though he's rich but he said that he love playing games and he said that's the best
experience since texno was one of the best gaming company.

"He's really a real deal" he utter, he was amazed too...like what I feel the day I first saw the mansion.

"He's weird, though!" I whisper

"Hey! follow me back on IG and I also hope that we can hang out again"

"Sure, Ah! about the hangout thingy, I hope so!" I show him a small smile before he stop the car and
like a prince in shining armor, he open the door for me like I'm a princess.



"Thanks Ivor"

"You're welcome, see you again!" he said then wave his hand before leaving the place.

He's weird but awesome.

"Cath, you should hurry! Señorito's very mad." a guard shocked me.

"Huh? why?" I fixed my hair but my brows furrowed.

"I don't know, he arrived around 1:00pm and he first find you but you're not home yet" he explained and
panic was prominent on his face.

"A-ah? did I do wrong?" I asked myself

I was holding a paper bag where inside was the things I bought earlier.

"Let's go! We should hurry!" he said and get in the golf cart so I hop in too, absent mindedly.

I sigh, the air is cold. It's just 4:30 pm yet it's quite dark and the clouds turns to gray with the touch of
crimson, obviously, maybe because of the sun that already sets.

°°°

"Cath we're here! Hey! What's wrong?" he asked that made me back to reality.

"Ah? yeah!" I responded and move my feet away.

°°°

"Witch! you ruin our afternoon! You know that?" it's Erika, she really sounds mad, she chided that as I
pass through her.



"I don't know a thing!" I honestly answer and rush inside.

"Lorence!"

"Y-yes mother Sharn?"

"Where you came from? What takes you too long?" she asked

"Huh? ah? I drop at the bazaar with a friend. It's just that I never recognized nor check the time."

"I see, get change and see him. You push to your limits" she said that made me realize that I was
wrong. I didn't think that I'm working for him, I'm his maid.

He just give me the opportunity yet I grab more than on what I deserve, my bad.

Suddenly, I feel down.

Inside my room, I sat at my bed and I feel like 99% of my energy were loss just by thinking that I really
do wrong.

I hate his feeling, I only feel this if I do something wrong and I know that I'll end up getting scolded.

I don't want it! I don't want him to hate me and I don't want him to fire me. I really don't.

I forced myself to change and go outside.

Erika and others was at the center couch, near the stairs.

Probably resting. Erika roll her eyes while crossing her arms. She made me feel more uncomfortable.
Aish!

I'm totally out of my mind and consumed by anxiety.



"She do nothing but flirting with señorito"

"yeah! she don't even do her proper job!"

"she is useless here!"

"Señorito most fire her!"

"he should! I don't like her!"

"Likewise!"

Those murmurings made me feel bad, should I quit working here? and I'm only here for days. I don't
have the quit, if they hate me...I don't care!

My feet hardly take a step upstairs, it's heavy and I'm really scared.

I stood in front of his door, hesitating if I should come in or not. I glanced at the CCTV, is he at the
monitor? I wave my hand like crazy at the camera, hoping that he will see it.

Ahhhh! my heart!

My heart is experiencing a storm, lightning and thunder were enjoying inside. I'm really nervous.

I fixed my head dress and take a deep breath, nervously waiting for the security scanning process,
lastly...

"Señorito is handsome" I shyly said because someone might hear me. The door opens expectedly yet
I'm still hesitating.

"The door will close after 5 minutes, are you planning to get inside or continue making me wait?" I
found him leaning at the wall near the door with he's black expression and warm intimidating aura and



voice.

"You're waiting huh! Señorito?" I whisper and secretly...my hands were cold and trembling.

"How come that you go home late?"

"A-ahm! I drop by at the money transfer and go at the bazaar" I explain while looking down.I can't look
at him straightly.

Then there's a sudden silence that made me feel more awkward. What should I do?

"When I'm alone I think of so many things to say to you, but now that you're here and I have a chance
to tell you. I fucking go speechless." I don't know what if he's mad but his tone seem like that...he's
mad, I couldn't understand.

"W-what are you saying?" Lorence can you be more careful next time? Can you tell him something that
can calm him and something that won't force him to speak in different language? Maybe is really mad
to the point that he don't want me to understand. What is his fuzz all about?

He spun around, still trying to stay his cool.

"I-I'm sorry...Raze!" I whisper

"You can leave now!" he said calmly yet something hits me inside, something that hurts me.

Like what he wish, I turn my back and hurriedly go downstairs.

Erika and her squad wasn't at the couch anymore, I don't know where are they though.

I go at the kitchen and help them there and I wonder if where's mother Sharn this time.

"Cath I said please hand me the pork" Aish! I was out of my mind.



"A-ah! s-sorry! Here!"

"Are you okay?" Kyle asked me

"Ah! yeah!" I respond

"Ah! excuse me. I'll find mother Sharn first" I lied and head the way out.

I was like in my fantasy now, the mansion was bright at this time. It looks like the fireflies floods and
gives a spark anywhere.

Where am I leading anyway?

My foot decide on it's own, darn it.

Did he forgive me already? I don't know if "you can leave now" that he said earlier means you're
already forgiven.

I hope it goes that way. I sat at the bench under the acacia tree, it's already dark so I search my phone
at my pocket.

"Don't open your flashlight yet!" that sweet voice startled me.

"W-what are you doing?" I ask, trying to release the crazy feeling.

"Just look in front, I know, you don't want to missed it" he commanded and after three seconds, all the
lamp post lights together, it's amazing that I couldn't get off my eyes at it.

The backyard what really huge, bigger than a university field.



The place where surrounded by green colors, the ground filled with Bermuda grass and the acacia tree
was planted will pattern, planted straight and like only two meters was the distance with each other.

It looks plain but I saw a cage nearby. That's scary though and his mini zoo was weird.

"W-what are you doing here?"

"I told you that I don't want to hear you stuttering!"

"I-I'm sorry"

"How come that you came all the way here just by walking?"he ask, I can't see his whole face because
the light only hit half of his face.

"A-ah? I-I don't know"

"Let's go back!"

"D-do you forgive me already?" I shyly asked.

"I'm really sorry!" I added

He suddenly pull my arms that make me stand.

I was looking at his face and I can hear my heartbeat now.

"You do nothing wrong! Ah! yeah! you just make me worry!" he whisper while looking straight at my
eyes.

"I didn't check the time earlier, I never realized that it's already pass 4"



"Who's with you?" his hands move down, tracing my arms down to my hands, it warms my heart and
make it increase my beatings.

I walk with him, letting him intertwined our fingers. He's making me curious, I don't know if I'm able to
sleep later.

Why I can't get my hands off? Why I can't even protest? Why my heart love his hold? Why? I don't like
this, I'm being unfair to Sabrina! If she'll know this, I know, She'll be hurt.

"A friend!"

"Do you have a friend here?"

"Yeah! he joined at the games yesterday"

"So he's a he!" he utter full of sarcasm.

"Yeah! Ivor and I met at the bazaar and--"

"So, you enjoy with him?" he loosen his hold until he let my hands go, he let my hands out of his
warmth then he fake a cough.

"Maybe, I did! he's nice and very friendly!" I proudly answer.

"That shit!"

"Huh?"

"I said let's head back now!" he left me standing, I can't get him. I dunno what's running on his mind.

His mood suddenly change!



He give me a false hope.

I should stop this stupidity of mine. Raze and I were not on the same level and Sabrina was much
better for him.

I sadly move my feet slowly, I'm just looking at his back, hoping that my feelings will fade away.

I know it's possible.

"Don't you know that creo que me gustas means I think I like you in Spanish?" he said in a low tone
voice but because of silence, I hear it clearly.

That words sounds familiar,where did I hear that anyway?

I see, He said that as he hug me last day.

"Why are you saying this to me?" I calmy ask while my heart were crying, she know that she's trapped
and the wall she tried to wrap a long ago was slowly being destroyed.

"Can't you understand it?" he responded.

"I can't, I only know that you'll be engaged soon, right Raze? or I'm just jumping into conclusions?" Why
I'm acting this way? What the hell! This is really a stupidity but I can't help it.

"Yeah! you're right! That woman was chosen for me" he answer that made my world fall apart.

"But I have someone that I I'll keep inside my heart, I know that since from the start" then I hear him
chuckle.

We walk until we reach the house, no one dare to speak and while walking I don't know why my tears
want to be free out from the age of my eyes.



I don't know but I only feel hurt right now, maybe I should distance myself from now on.

I have to.


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