Chapter 43

43. This Feeling

YILEYNA

Raiden still managed a small smile despite the threat that was spoken in a tone so poisonous that we
all felt it. He picked up his cup, taking a rather big swig, and cleared his throat.

“I think I like the interior colour they already have here.” He said lightly, looking around the restaurant.

Theon didn’t reply, simply sitting back as he was and looking as cold and uncaring as always.

“So… your turn?” I said, looking at Theon. His cold glare turned on me, his eyes flashing gold, making
my heart skip a beat.

“You do it, like I said, I’m not playing.” He said, and to my surprise, he reached over, running his
knuckles down my cheek, making my heart pound as he left tingles in his wake.

“You looked pretty beautiful with blood smeared all over you too.” His eyes dipped to my lap, making
my cheeks burn as I realised what he was hinting at. My virginity.

He was getting back at Raiden, that was obvious. I looked away brushing a curl over my shoulder and
turned towards Charlene only for Theon’s hand to wrap around my neck, tilting my head backwards
making it hit his chest, and then his lips met mine sending dangerously delicious sparks of pleasure
through me.

Even though I was far too shocked, my lips automatically moved against his, and when his other hand
wrapped around my waist possessively, making my core clench I wasn’t able to pull away.

His touch and caress, like always, were irresistible…



“Damn.” Ryan remarked lightly.

“I think I need to find myself a lady for the night.”

Theon finally let go, leaving me a giddy mess as he indifferently picked up some more meat from the
platter.

“Well, that was a clear point made.” Raiden smirked as he raised his glass.

“To Yileyna and Theon, our Beta couple.” He winked at me, and I smiled slightly. Beta couple… It
sounded… odd. We were something, but what that was, I had no name for it.

I reached for the bottle and spun it, waiting for it to stop. It finally slowed and landed on Ryan.

“Ryan… what is your worst fear?” I asked after a moment.

“I have none.” He scoffed.

I raised an eyebrow.

“Really, I don’t think that’s true.” I said suspiciously.

“Yeah, we all have fears.” Raiden agreed, whilst Charlene nodded her agreement.

“You can tell us, we are only the future heads of the Silver Moon Pack. Your secret is safe with us.

” She encouraged him gently. Rvan simply took his small cup, filling it with the strong alcohol mix and
downed it in one go.

“Right, I took my shot.” He glared at us as Raiden and I jeered.

“That was silly of you! It was just your fear,” Raiden scolded.



“Yes, you are no fun!” I agreed as Ryan simply gave Raiden the finger and spun the bottle…

It was much later, and we had all left the restaurant together, and I was still mustering my courage to
ask Theon if we could go for a walk because I knew the moment we were in our room, there would be
nothing but us submitting to our desires.

Theon had actually booked us a room together this time, and I had to admit it made me happy to know
I wasn’t just a secret of his to hide. Despite some of the men lightly teasing or joking Theon, but none
pushed it knowing that although Theon didn’t give a reaction he could flip in seconds.

We were about to walk up the stairs to our floor when I grabbed hold of his arm, making his gaze snap
to me. I glanced at the other three who had stopped, but I didn’t speak, waiting for them to get to their
rooms.

“Make sure the princess’s room is watched.” Theon commanded emotionlessly.

Raiden nodded as all three continued up and Charlene gave me a small wave. Once they had
disappeared from sight, I turned back to Theon.

“Umm, could we… go for a walk?” I asked quietly, although we were alone.

Suddenly, it felt like a test… If he refused, I was nothing more than his sex doll, and if he agreed… Just
the thought made my heart skip a beat, a ray of hope flitting through me.

He didn’t reply, turning around and walking back towards the entrance. I smiled, happiness rushing
through me as I hurried to keep up with him, he had stopped outside the front doors, and I came to an
abrupt stop, so I didn’t go slamming into his back. He gave me a cold smirk as I glared at him knowing
he found it amusing.

“What’s the rush?” He mocked, carrying on down the path.



“Well, if you were a gentleman, you could have walked a little slower.” I retorted.

He raised an eyebrow.

“I never said I was a gentleman and we both know it’s not a gentleman you crave.” He replied
arrogantly, making my stomach flip.

“Hmm… true. You win this round.”

Because you agreed to the walk. I smiled wanting to lean into him, but I didn’t move, walking beside
him with no destination in mind.

The wind whispered past us in a pleasant breeze and the occasional person walking past cast a
curious gaze our way. It was obvious that we were foreigners in this city.

“Theon…”

“Hmm?”

“Do you ever wonder where you are from? Or if you had a family?” I asked bravely. A frown flitted
across his face, but he kept moving.

“What’s the point in delving over something that I don’t have?” He asked, his voice emotionless and
hard. 1

“You must have had one somewhere… maybe they thought you had died.” I persisted gently.

He clenched his jaw.

“Or they’re dead already.” His eyes were cold and hard as he stared ahead.



“What if-”

“If I had a family Yileyna, wouldn’t they have come to look for me?” He had stopped now, glaring coldly
into my eyes.

“Maybe they actually thought-”

“I am not having this conversation. Drop it.”

“I’m only saying what if you have a family out there, maybe we can try.”

“I have no one.” His cold words clenched my heart painfully, and I could almost feel the agony in his
voice.

“That’s not true, you have me.” I whispered, placing my hand on his chest.

I was ready for his anger, for him to push me away or to scoff that I was nothing to him, but instead, he
just looked… uncertain. His eyes held several emotions before he looked away.

” Theon…”

I had lost my family too, the pain of losing almost everyone you love and feeling alone was something I
understood. “Don’t tie yourself to me little storm, you will only regret it.” He said quietly.

“It’s far too late for that Theon… I…” My heart pounded, my nerves making me feel sick as I grasped
onto the front of his shirt as he tried to turn away from me.

“I love you.” There, I said it, my heart was thumping with nerves. I admitted my feelings, feelings I never
knew were so strong until this very moment. A flicker of surprise crossed his face before he frowned
deeply and shook his head.



“You don’t know what love is, trust me, this infatuation with me is not love. One day both of us will wake
up and realise that that was all it was… a fleeting moment of infatuation.” He ran his fingers through my
hair, slight tugging on my braids and threading his fingers into my locks at the nape of my neck.

“Don’t add meaningless names to this Yileyna, because in the end, it’s only going to hurt you.” Don’t
add meaningless names… but it wasn’t meaningless… I knew, in his own way, that he cared and that I
had truly fallen for him…

“Theon, my feelings won’t change, I know what I’m feeling and it’s my choice.” I whispered, but
something about the look on his face told me I was losing this conversation.

“Nothing is forever, little storm. Nothing.”

“Theon-”

He cut me off, cupping my chin with his free hand before claiming my lips in a sizzling passionate
kiss…

Think what you want Theon, believe what you want, but this was my decision. I could love whomever I
wanted, and my heart chose to love you…I’ll stay silent. If those are words you don’t want to hear, then
that’s fine. I’ll show you in my actions, I’ll express my feelings for you in ways that don’t include me
speaking those words…I promise you.




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