Chapter 171 - Heart Demon

Chapter 171 - Heart Demon

In the beginning, Li Moyun had been worried about the absorption rate and that it would harm Bai Rouyun, but after a bit of time, he became calm again.
However, this calmness did not last long. As time passed, the absorption grew more and more uncontrolled and intense. The body, which had been able to refine the energy at the start, showed signs of being incapable to keep up.
Li Moyun placed his hand on Bai Rouyun's back, and he tried to draw out the energy. Although it might cause him some sequela, it would not be as severe as it would for Bai Rouyun.
Unfortunately, the energy was not willing to act alongside his wishes. It was resisting him, and he quickly withdrew his hand as he noticed that the battle brought more damage than benefits to Bai Rouyun.
He was frowning, and he felt an unprecedented panic which he had never felt before.
He himself had never experienced such situations while cultivating. For him, cultivation had never had any bottlenecks or troubles. It had been a walk in the park, and thus he did not know what to do now.
He tried erecting a barrier around Bai Rouyun to block the heaven and earth essence that was rushing into her body, but he soon found that even though the barrier was supposed to block all energy, the essence rushed through as if there was no barrier.
Bai Rouyun's face had been ruddy due to the alcohol, but when Li Moyun glanced at her facial expression, his eyes turned solemn.
Her previously flushed face had turned deathly pale, and big droplets of sweat were beading on her forehead. It was clear that the previously comfortable absorption had turned extremely uncomfortable.
Even so, she showed no signs of waking up. Li Moyun could not help but wonder what had happened to her today. If it was merely going out for some drinks and food, then why was she reacting like this?
Did this extreme absorption have anything to do with her being drunk, or was it all a coincidence?
Li Moyun was not sure, but a dangerously cold gleam flashed by his eyes. If he found out that this disaster was caused by humans, he would ensure that no one involved would be able to live a good life. He would make them wish that they were dead.
Bai Rouyun was lying on the bed. Her body was twitching from time to time, and she kept biting her lower lip until it started bleeding.
Her eyelids trembled, but no matter how much she tried to wake up, it was an impossible feat for her.
Her body felt as if it was held down by massive chains that had wrapped themselves around herself as snakes, unwilling to give up. Instead, they were constantly dragging her deeper and deeper into a sense of confusion and discomfort.
Images of her past life began flashing in front of her eyes, the escape that she had gone through, the many people she had killed in her attempt to stay alive just another moment, another day.
Back then, she was full of despair. She was alone and fighting against the many factions on her own. She knew that she would not be able to be saved, but she was not willing to give up.
The tenacity and unwillingness were burning in her mind and body as she left rivers of blood in her wake.
She had never felt guilty for her actions, and even now, she did not think that she had done anything wrong.
They wanted to kill her, so she had killed them first.
Faced with this situation once more, she would do the same.
The more she thought of her despair and hopelessness, the deeper she sank in the confusion, and her mind became dazed. It was challenging to think, and every thought took a long time to process.
She did not feel the energy that was rushing into her body. Her mind was trapped in a prison that she could not break. The prison of her past life had a bigger influence on her than she had initially expected.
Although she had become much more broad-minded, and had accepted that she could not generalize, she still knew that the experiences she had gone through could never be erased.
She had to get revenge to move on. But was life all about revenge? She had already reached the answer to this question, which was no.
Unknown to her, her mind had been confused. While she never paid any attention to her actual mental state, she suddenly realized that she had contradicting thoughts.
She wanted revenge, but the urge to kill the implicated parties had grown more and more dull and unimportant as she spent time with Li Moyun.
While it was true that Li Moyun had become the most important person in her life, she could not forget or change who she was for his sake.
Unexpectedly, this contradiction had turned into a heart demon. Her heart was feeling conflicted and uncomfortable. She was no longer sure what she wanted with her life, and there were two paths in front of her, but when she looked at the two, her mind felt confused.
Should she give up her revenge and fully focus on her new life, or start anew, and no longer look back?
Should she focus on cultivation and revenge? Should she live for the vengeance of the past?
Bai Rouyun was getting more and more confused. In her mind, there were two roads in front of her, and she knew that no matter which one she picked, she would lose something.
Finally, her dazed eyes turned focused. She looked at the two roads, and then a mocking smile appeared on her lips. She had come to a decision.