Chapter 194 My Heart Was In A Mess

Taking a deep breath, Xenia looked at me seriously. "Jasmine, I have a few questions to ask you now.
Can you answer me honestly?"

I nodded and said, "I know that lookers on see more than players. The reason why I tell you this secret
is that I want you to help me tell me what I haven't seen clearly, because my heart is really in a mess
now."

"Who asked you to be Rogelio's wife?"

"Robbie."

"So you met Robbie first?"

I nodded to Xenia and said, "Yes."

"How did you feel when you first see him?"

I didn't know why Xenia asked me this question at that time. Fortunately, she didn't ask me how I knew
him.

My thoughts were pulled back to that terrible night. When I woke up, the face of a stranger appeared in
front of me.

"Panic, fear, shame..."

But when I thought that he promised my mother to give her money at the most critical moment, I
couldn't help saying, "He is a good man, cold outside but warm inside. Although he looks indifferent, he
makes people feel safe..."



"Why did you have so many feelings towards him when you first met him? Then why did you promise
him to marry Rogelio?"

"Because of money, I didn't have any other choice at that time. I wanted to get money and I also
wanted to stay away from my mother."

Then Xenia continued to ask, "How did you feel when you saw the unconscious Rogelio?"

"At the first sight, I felt that he looked like Robbie. At that time, Rogelio's skin was a little bit darker than
Robbie and he was also thinner than him. I've read a thank-you letter from a remote school to Rogelio.
He was very kind and funded a lot of poor students. In addition, I also saw the love letters Michelle
wrote to him when he fell in love with her. I think their love is very beautiful."

"Then how did you feel when you left the Luo family and Rogelio?"

I recalled that time very carefully. Then I said to Xenia, "I felt sorry for him when he didn't wake up. I
thought such a person shouldn't have such a tragic end and fate. When he finally woke up, I was very
excited. At that time, I regarded him as my only family member, the only person I could confide in, and
the only person I needed to take good care of. When I left the Luo Family, I missed him very much. I
was worried if he had been taken good care of by others or not. I wanted to know how his situation of
recovery. When I finally saw that he was fine and had his beloved woman by his side, I was happy for
him."

I took a deep breath and added, "I have also thought about whether we will be happy together now if I
don't leave the Luo Family and if I am still Rogelio's wife."

Looking at me, Xenia sighed heavily. "Jasmine, you are so silly. If you had told me all these things
earlier, I could have found a way to solve your problem. How could I tell you the truth now when things
have come to this?"



I took Xenia's hand to find a bit of comfort. "Xenia, tell me, what's wrong with me? My mind is in a mess
now."

"No wonder you always said that it was impossible between you and Robbie when I mentioned Robbie
in front of you. Today I finally understand the reason."

Holding my hand back, Xenia hesitated for a while and said, "Jasmine, you are my good friend, so I
know that if I say something to you, it will make you more painful, but I still want to tell you the truth. As
a bystander, I want to tell you that the person you like from the beginning is Robbie, not Rogelio."

My whole body couldn't help trembling. The affirmative expression on Xenia's face made me become
more confused.

'Why do I hope that what Xenia has said to is not true?' I thought to myself.

"I know you can't accept my answer for a while, but this is the reality that you don't want to face."

"You have such a deep first impression of Robbie, but he let you marry Rogelio. From that moment on,
you know in your heart that Robbie has no feelings for you, and the relationship between you and
Rogelio also doomed that there would be no result between you and Robbie.

But Rogelio looks like Robbie. Subconsciously, you have already taken care of him by seeing him as
the substitute of Robbie. Even a child who has played with a doll for a long time will have feelings for
his own doll, not to mention a living person like Rogelio.

But your feeling towards him is sympathy, not love. You have taken care of him for so long, and you two
are a nominal couple. You want Rogelio to get better, and you also want to see him become happy.
This is a very normal feeling. If it were someone else, it would be the same for you."



Holding my hand tighter, Xenia continued, "If you really love him, you will claim to be his wife when he
woke up; if you really love him, you will try every means to be with him; if you really love him, you will
not be in a dilemma now, but cheer for the relationship between you two; if you really love him, you will
pick up your marriage certificate and tell everyone that this man is yours. But from my point of view, you
don't really love him...

It's the same question I asked you last time. I asked you who would you save if both of them fell into
the water at the same time. You didn't tell me your answer at that time, but I think you must have an
answer in your heart."

What Xenia said made me close my eyes. That terrible thought appeared in my mind again.

My answer was I would save Rogelio and then drown together with Robbie.

When this thought flashed through my mind at that time, I felt that it was just my casual thought, but at
this moment after hearing Xenia's words, I felt that this answer made my heart froze.

I was afraid, and I didn't want to accept what Xenia had said to me as the truth.

"Are you afraid because you know that you shouldn't fall in love with Robbie because of your identity?
Actually, the reason why you don't want to refuse Rogelio is also because of your identity, and you feel
that you also care about him in your heart. He woke up miraculously. So you don't want to hurt his
feelings.

I know this answer is cruel, but you have to face it in the end. To be honest, in the current situation, you
and Robbie will not have a result. Rogelio is a good choice for you. I know that love can't be forced, but
whoever you choose to be with, someone will eventually be hurt."

I stood up numbly. "Xenia, I'm a little tired. I want to have a rest."



Looking at me with concern, Xenia said, "Go ahead."

But when I was about to go upstairs, the doorbell rang.

Xenia said nervously, "Who will come at this time? Is it Michelle's fan?"

She walked to the door, took a look at the surveillance camera and breathed a sigh of relief. "It's
Rosie."

Then she opened the door and saw Carla. But she didn't say anything and took a step aside. Then,
Mike appeared behind her.

Having never seen Nancy before, Xenia asked Rosie, "Who is she?"

What was supposed to come would eventually come. I walked to the door and respectfully greeted
Nancy, calling her "Auntie."


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