Chapter 153: Thats...

Chapter 153: That's...

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By mistake, I ended ruining the surprise and took into my ice giant form because of my inner desires.
I feel so ashamed I want to throw myself out the window…
Well, let's get over it…
After this incident, I ended having to show this form to most of the people inside. It wasn't taken so badly, especially because everyone seemed used to all the fantastical things that I could do.
The kids had a hard time believing it, but I just shape-shifted back into a dragon until they finally accepted it at the end, phew.
I didn't want to show them all the things I could actually transform, as I was even able to become an Ice, Water, or Wind Slime… but that's not something I will ever show to others, I just don't want to! If I do, they will want me to divide myself into pets or something. And I haven't even developed the body of a slime properly. I know there might be the possibility to get some of their skills, and it is on my to-do list, but for now, I have other issues.
Such as Benladann.
What am I supposed to do now?
S-she's always looking at me so cutely, now with this form, it is pretty obvious what's next…
Or is it?!
Should I just go for it?
Ugh… I feel bad. I feel like I am taking advantage of her by doing so. What if I am just taking advantage that she feels terrible due to the death of her parents? In the end, I will end like a creepy guy taking advantage of a girl that needed comfort and love.
Or am I being too much of a pushover? I know that she liked me even before this… But maybe she had changed her feelings.
Or not?
Why am I being so terrible at this? I suppose never having a meaningful romantic experience in my previous life does this to me.
Benladann is pretty much the first person that I've gotten to love like this, and also the first one that actually loves me back, something that never happened in my previous life.
And the most ironic thing is that it happened when I was a monster, a dragon from all things…
What can there be in life for someone to enjoy it?
Others are happy by just slaughtering people, monsters, and growing stronger endlessly.
Other people find comfort in living solitary lives.
And others… the more fortunate ones, build a family and dedicate their lives to it.
What is the correct choice?
The truth is, I want the last one… I already got a family done so it is not so hard.
Despite being a loner, I wasn't someone that particularly enjoyed being alone.
But for now, I won't force my way into her, and I will try something out slowly… After all, I wonder if she still wants me to sleep at her side even in this form.
I guess I could go back to my dragon form, which I feel more comfortable with.
But these hands… and this posture, and this light body… Man, I really missed human-like hands! I can do all sorts of stuff with them without having to use my soul tentacles for it.
We decided to cook for dinner together, me and Benladann. And I enjoyed my hands as I cut the meat butchering the things Skadi hunted, cut root salt, and more…
"How does it feel to have a body like that?" asked Benladann.
"It feels… refreshing. Although I am still too used to my dragon body. But well, I used to be a human back on Earth, so it obviously feels quite amazing to use hands, and have a human-like body for once…" I sighed.
"I see… You're really… Erm… Aaahh… N-Nothing…" Benladann tried to say something but suddenly got all red and didn't say anything else…
"Eh? What?" I asked.
"Umm… Well, you're looking… Good!" said Benladann, while blushing more and suddenly closing her eyes shyly.
"I look good?" I asked.
"Y-Yesss…" she muttered.
"Ah… I am glad you think that… I thought you only liked me as a dragon," I said, smiling a bit. Damn, have I ever smiled before now that I think about it? It feels so odd.
She noticed my smile as she got even redder.
"O-Of course… Drake… Y-Your dragon form is very cool and majestic… But your… this form… it has its own thing too… It is also quite… handsome," she said.
"Handsome? I see, so the Dragon Bloodline really makes me handsome… Back on earth, I was just average at most, but never was considered handsome… I think they used to call me ugly," I laughed.
"E-Eeeh?! How terrible… Why would they ever treat you like that?" asked Benladann, getting concerned.
"Hm? Well… that's how people are? Ah, I guess you didn't experience it as much… Or did you? Ah, better not to talk about our past, it is not good to remember bad things," I said.
"A-Ah… Well, I guess I didn't have much experience either… But I just felt bad… I don't know why anyone would be mean with you, Drake… You're such a good person!" said Benladann.
"Good person? Me?! I don't think so…" I sighed.
"Why not? You… have helped me so much… And everyone here too… Well, that's what I… think!" said Benladann.
Ah… She's way too good for me. I don't deserve to be loved by her.
"I see. As long as you're the one that thinks of me, then I don't care about the rest," I said
"T-That's right! That's a good mindset…!" said Benladann, while smiling, as she drank some of the soup with a large wooden spoon.
"I think it might be almost ready…" she said.
I quickly drank some of the soup from the spoon, the broth was almost ready.
"Uwah…"
Suddenly, Benladann gets even redder.
"What's wrong?"
"Y-You… D-Drake… You tasted the soup from the spoon I did… T-That's like… an… i-indirect k-kissss…" she muttered.
"Oh… Well, I didn't know," I apologized.
"I-It's fineee…" she muttered, she seemed to be in cloud nine.
Damn…
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