Chapter 72 - Being Self-righteous

Chapter 72 Being Self-righteous

Xia Ning wants to refuse. However, when she looks at Ou Yixuan’s intense eyes and thinks of his birthday, she just can’t say “No.”.
Seeing that Xia Ning hesitates, Ou Yixuan holds her and heads for the Starbucks.
It is after dinner time and Starbucks is crowded with many guests. They find a table by the wall and sit down.
The clerk comes to them and asks what they would like to have.
The familiar scene makes Xia Ning sentimental. On the same day of the previous years, they would always go to Starbucks for a cup of coffee and order a bunch of desserts.
.
Since it was always the day when Ou Yixuan was the freest.
No matter how busy he was working, he would be the freest on the day.
“A cup of Caramel Macchiato and a piece of berries mousse. Thank you.” Xia Ning says.
“A cup of Latte,” Ou Yixuan looks at her, “and a piece of berries mousse.”
“OK. In a minute.”
After the clerk walks away, Xia Ning is confused, “You don’t like sweet foods. Do you? Why do you order berries mousse?”
Ou Yixuan smiles mildly, “I didn’t like sweet foods. I didn’t notice that you are hypoglycemic. Recently, I checked Baidu and realized hypoglycemic people had to eat sweet foods. I didn’t make any change for you. I am sorry.”
Xia Ning hears and feels mildly sad. She was with him for eight years. Every time, when they went out for dinner, he always ordered what he liked. Even if he might buy things for her, that would be what he liked too. She did not mind anything. Now, she thinks about it and realizes she was really silly at that time.
“Never mind. It is past.” Xia Ning takes a sip of the warm water.
Ou Yixuan looks at her quietly for quite a while, “It is past. Err.” He is painful. He said the words to her before, but it sounds now like a knife sticking into his heart and he is so painful that his mind is a blank.
He thought that he had got mentally prepared since the moment he married Yin Jingsi and could bear losing everything about Xia Ning. However, he finds now that no matter what he does with Yin Jingsi, he remembers Xia Ning and naturally imagines Yin Jingsi to be her. He thought it might temporarily happen, but as time went by, the thought became stronger and stronger.
It is so strong…that he often speaks out Xia Ning’s name.
He even told Yin Jingsi to do what Xia Ning had done. Regretfully, his heart could never be satisfied.
Then he realized that, as a matter of fact, he had got used to having Xia Ning by him. This emotion is even stronger than love. He figures out that she is part of him, physically and mentally.
In the past, she was there, arranging everything based on his tastes, understanding everything because of him. He had never experienced the pain of losing.
The pain…goes deep into bone marrows.
Without her, he is like a body without soul, a walking dead.
When he sees her standing behind other men, his heart is in a fury with an urge to pull her back at once.
However, it is late.
Among fame and wealth and love, he chose fame and wealth. But he is regretful about his choice.
Till now, he finally understands what he really wants.
Aware of Ou Yixuan’s strange expression, Xia Ning is confused, “What happened? You look unhappy.”
“No, no. I am happy. Seriously, I am happy to stay with you.”
Xia Ning doesn’t respond. At the time, the coffee is served. Xia Ning takes a sip. It is sweet.
She puts down the coffee and wants to tell him something clearly, “Yixuan, you are married now. You are not expected to say so to me.”
Ou Yixuan smiles mildly, “Oh.”
He was always in high spirit, but now he looks upset. Xia Ning frowns, “You said, you love Jingsi most. If you have anything, you should talk with her. I am not preaching you a sermon. But as you said, all that between you and me is past. We are both married people. We should not have any contact.”
Hearing this, Ou Yixuan’s face freezes, “Are you saying that we can’t even be friends?”
“For the reason of work, we may contact with each other. But to contact as friends, I don’t think so.”
“Ning…” Ou Yixuan is shocked and can’t speak for a while.
She was easy-going in the past. He thought that she did not have her own opinion. But he realizes now that the previous was because of him only!
She did have her own opinion, but she loved him too much.
He was really stupid.
“Well, it is your birthday. We should not talk about this topic. Happy birthday.”
“Thank you.” Ou Yixuan smiles bitterly, “Thank you for staying with me today.”
“You are welcome. After all, I don’t have any gift for you.” Xia Ning cocks her head and suddenly she asks, “Do you know when Jingsi’s birthday is?”
“Her birthday hasn’t arrived yet. It is on Oct. 5th.” Ou Yixuan sips the coffee and puts it down.
She drank this kind of coffee for eight years and he never thought of having a taste. Now, he finds it sweet with good smell. Surprisingly, he likes it.
“Oh.” Xia Ning curls her lips, “Then do you remember when my birthday is?”
Hearing this, Ou Yixuan is shocked astonishingly.
Well, when is Xia Ning’s birthday?
Xia Ning finds the answer when she sees his expression, “Never mind. Forget it. Err…”
“Ning, I’m sorry.”
Ou Yixuan shouldn’t have said the words. Hearing what he said, Xia Ning bursts into a rage. She puts down the coffee, “Ou Yixuan, I advise you not to pretend anymore. What are you here for? If you say you still have feelings for me, do you think I will believe it? Go to the point. I am married. It is no good if someone else sees me here.”
Being scolded, Ou Yixuan looks at Xia Ning blankly, “No. I don’t mean that. Ning, you take it wrong. I asked you to come here to drink coffee. I am serious…”
“You should feel sorry for Jingsi. You are married. You should be nice to her. Don’t contact any previous girlfriends.” Xia Ning says and stands up.
“Please stay.” Ou Yixuan catches her, “Sorry. You promised. It hasn’t been one hour yet.”
Xia Ning frowns. It is embarrassing to be seen pulled by him. She sits down again.
“Actually, I want to ask a question. I hope you can give me an answer.”
“You can ask.”
Ou Yixuan thinks for a while, “Is getting married with Yi Yunrui your true will? Or, are you just mad at me? Are you betting your happiness for that? Do you think it is worth?”
Xia Ning is stuck. Looking at the water on the table, she tries her best to control the urge of pouring it on Ou Yixuan’s face.
They have come to this stage, while he is still so self-righteous!
She can’t believe that she loved this man for eight years. She must have been blind.