Chapter 53

Chapter 53BOOK TWO
Caleb’s Point of View
I reach over intent on pulling Daphne close to me, snuggling so that I may fall asleep again.
Unfortunately, once again I find that she is no longer in bed with me. Finally opening my eyes, I see
that she is once again staring out into the night, biting her nails, and lost in her head.
It has been a few days since Scarlett and Theo’s commitment ceremony, and everything had gone
beautifully. In truth I was slightly jealous that they were able to have such a beautiful ceremony,
whereas mine and Daphne’s had been somewhat nightmarish.
Daphne had opened up to me after her and Scarlett had gone dress shopping. Both women thought
that there was a
possibility that Daphne was pregnant. I was shocked at first thinking of being a father. I love kids and
have always
wanted kids of my own. I just thought
that Daphne and I would have more time to ourselves before the little patter of paws would be filling the
house. I regret now ever having that thought and would do anything to go back in time to unthink
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Daphne insisted on waiting until after the mating ceremony to get checked out by the pack doctor. By
that time, I hadbecome excited, even thinking of baby names in my head. I felt it in my very bones that Daphne would
be an amazing mother. I could picture her holding our
pup, teaching them how to walk, and to
speak. I did not want to wait to see the doctor, but Daphne had insisted.
The day after the mating ceremony we
were both slightly nervous as we waited for the pack doctor to tell us if she was pregnant or not. I wish
that I had magic powers to reverse time, if only to capture the smile that had been on her face that day.
After some poking and prodding and several tests the pack doctor asked Daphne if she wanted to
speak privately. I growled at him letting him know that I would not be leaving my precious mate’s side.
Unfortunately, the doctor did not have good news for us. Daphne was pregnant in a sense, but it was
not what would be considered a viable pregnancy. The doctor explained that the egg had never exited
the fallopian tubes, therefore although Daphne was experiencing pregnancy like symptoms the egg is
not viable and needed to be removed. The pack doctor was sympathetic and
explained that it is common and that
some women go through this experience without ever knowing that they were pregnant. The egg
however was still in the fallopian tube and was a concern for
the doctor. He explained that Daphne would need to undergo a small procedure to remove the egg so
that it did not cause
any farther damage. 1
I watched Daphne’s face the entire time.the doctor was telling us the news. I could feel the range of emotions that flooded
her being. From denial, to fear, to depression I felt everything that she was feeling, and it broke my
heart. All I have ever wanted to do was love and protect my mate above all else, and lately it
seems as if I am failing her over and over. I never considered that there would be heartaches that I
would have no ability to save her from.
The doctor was professional and gave a
few minutes to grieve the loss of a life that never even had a chance to exist. Before exiting he did
explain that Daphne would need to undergo the procedure immediately and he left to prep his team.
We did not speak instead I just held her in my arms trying to sooth her as best as I
could.
Too soon the doctor let us know that they were ready, and I had to release Daphne from my arms. I
paced the waiting room until finally the nurse told me that
everything was done, and that Daphne could come home. For the first few days she was not allowed to
leave the bed. The doctor was adamant that she takes some time to heal, both physically and
mentally. It has now been almost a week, and even though she is out of bed she has yet to leave our
room.
Staring at my beautiful mate, softly
glowing in the moonlight I wished that I
could take away her pain. While she was
still in recover the doctor sought me outwith some additional information that I
had yet to tell Daphne. Due to the
traumatic abuse that she suffered
growing up at some point her uterus and
pelvic region had sustained considerable damage. The doctor is unsure as to whether she would ever
be able to carry
pups. 1
I do not like hiding things from my mate, but I am completely unsure of how to tell her this news. I feel
utterly broken,
unsure of how to help her through this time. Internally sighing I start to climb out of bed with the
intentions of leading my mate to rejoin me.
She remained still as I approached her. Reaching around her I pull her lithe
frame against me, practically purring
from the sparks that shoot through my body at simply touching her. I thought that the sparks would
lessen the longer we are mated, but they are as strong
today as they were the day, I first touched
her.“Love it is late. Why are you insistent on showing the moon that you are more beautiful than it?” I could
feel the slight smile tug at her lips, and I love that I can do that to her. 1
“I was simply thinking about how much life has changed in the last year.” I could tell that there was
more on her mind but did not push her to go farther. (1
“You should be in bed with me. The sheets are cold and lonely without you.”
“I am sorry. I did not mean to keep you up.” Her voice is soft.
“I love you, Daphne. I wish there were
something I could do or say that could
put your mind at ease my love. We can
always try again for a pup after you have healed, if that is what you desire.” The doctor had only said
he was unsure, he never said it would be impossible. Still, I felt a pang of guilt shoot through me that I
could potentially be giving her false hope. If she is unable to carry pups, we could always adopt. I am
not opposed to adoption.
“Do you think it would have been a boy or a girl?” She asked the question so softly that if I did not have
excellent hearing her words would be lost in the vast void of the darkness.
“I think that it was neither. I think that it was a fluke of nature that like the doctor said is common. The
silver lining is that we still have each other.” I hoped that my voice did not betray my true thoughts.
Like Daphne I had wondered if it would have been a boy or a girl. If it would have looked like me or her.
Alas these were
questions that would never have answers to them.I softly turn Daphne around so that her face is now pressed against my chest. We no longer talk; I
simply just hold. Finally, I pick her up bridal style and tuck her back into bed with no resistance.
Climbing in behind her I spoon her with my chest pressed against her back, and my arms wrapped
around her body.
“Try and get some sleep love, you have your follow up appointment tomorrow.” I softly stroked her hair
until I felt her breathing even out and I knew that she had finally succumbed to the exhaustion.