Chapter 101: Love Is A Losing Game

Matteo's Pov

5 years later

A lot of things has happened throughout these past five years after she left me.

Lorentz left Quinn too on the same night. He move to the humans side and start his own life there
without looking back.

Both people we love left us, all because of our selfish act and unforgiveable mistakes we did in the
past.1

Today is the first time I attended a meeting usually Jay and Jona does on my behalf but an accident
happens a year ago which left Quinn crippled and Jona died.

It was indeed my punishment from the moon goddess. I guess karma will always follow our way and its
how I almost have nothing now.

Its true that I almost lost everything except for my own pack. They came to understand me and try to
support me by standing by my side without questioning my choices and the absence of a luna.

That is right I never had another luna or anyone I chose to be a luna for me after Addasah. I was all
alone in this world without the love of my life.

The Alphas from other packs started to come in the conference room. Eric and Dante wave in my way
before sitting on their seat beside their luna.

They have been good friends to me through out this years. When they came to know the whole truth
they never judge me for it or even cast away my pack and I from the world of prestigious Alphas and
Pack.



They were really understanding and have told me their own experiences saying that they were not
better than me either.

I look up at the room's door and saw Aaron nod in my way once he enter the room.

He came and sat beside me patting me on the back "it's good to have you back Matteo," he said with a
smile.

Yeah and you don't get to forget my cousin and Jay who have help me through the pain apart from
others.

Everyone was here except for one Alpha who says to run in a bit late. I have heard of this new Alpha
and his luna but never I have met him as this is my first time in a meeting since five years.

I chat with Aaron and other Alphas from other pack. Glad nobody brought up the death of Jona or
having no luna. Suddenly the doors open and that's when I saw her.

My Mate, my love, my woman, the one I lost 5 years back then. There was no more bond binding us to
one another as our separation kills those sparks but unbelievably the feelings I have for her was infinity.

My heart, my body, my soul are still tied to her.

Her sapphire eyes lighten the room. The same eyes I use to dream of every night, the ones I look in to
when we made passionate love all night years ago.

Her black hair now highlights with red hair neatly done in an updo bun with curly hair loosen down her
face.

The hair I wish to touch one more time before I die.

Her face filled with radiant, no longer have any dark shades under those beautiful eyes.



Every inch of her body and soul I always imprint them in my head and heart.

One of the announce that meeting is now starting as everyone is here now, including the luna of the
Pack we have been waiting for.

My heart clench hearing that the luna of the last pack is here instead of the Alpha. My eyes moves from
her to two young pups behind her.2

My breath hitch and I felt Aaron's hand patting my shoulder in which I turn and told him that I'm okay.
Yet this is too much for me to see and witness.

Watching her from across the room was unbearable with two grown up pups pulling on her skirt calling
her "mama."

'How lucky is the one whom they call their father,' I thought to myself as I keep staring at her.4

I wish they were mine and she is still mine unfortunately they aren't anymore. I bet she now belongs to
someone else and how lucky is that person to have her as their mate and luna.3

She usher the two young pups out to their baby sister before taking a seat and smile around the room.
Her eyes glance around until they are finally on mine.

We look into each others eyes almost forever. It feels like the world has frozen and there was no one in
this room but just the two of us.

My mouth stretch into a smile while at the same time I am trying to be brave and that's when she gave
me the brightest smile that I always remember.

It was that same smile she gave me when I first officially ask her out as my girlfriend. She is happy and
that all matters to me now.



Seeing her engage freely and smiling from here to there in the room flutters my heart.

Of course my heart always belongs to her alone even though everything still hurts. Yet all that matters
is that she is happier than ever.

She has moved on and found someone that loves her sincerely, deserves her better and is good
enough for her.

I won't ever compare myself to the one she has chosen and I have no right to feel jealous or mad. I
have standby my words to her and I won't be any more obstacles in her life.

She deserves that smile and her own happy family after all the pain I made her go through.

The guilt that has been eating up soul is no longer there in me. Everything weigh was gone but was
replaced with sorrow and regret.

I still remember what she told me years back that I would never know how she felt of everything then;
me choosing her, me loving her, me having a kid with her.

She may be wrong then because what she felt back then is what I felt every moments of this life.

Losing her was enough for me to know what it feels like to be unloved, to be hurt, to be broken, to be
upset, to be angry and to regret every choice I ever made.

This love I have is already a losing game, where I am already lost in this game of love and
mates.


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