Chapter 47: 47 Kalopsia

Kalopsia

- the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are

Origin: Greek

47

SAVANNAH'S POV

I was sitting down inside a coffee shop, rewriting my 500-word essay for this Friday. I have been here
for almost an hour now and I'm still not halfway through. My neck is already hurting and my wrist is
starting to hurt as well. I take a sip from my frappe and it's already four in the afternoon.

"Savannah. Good to see you here."

I pulled my head up and it was Alec. He walks closer to my table. I haven't seen or talked to him after
that night when I eavesdropped his conversation with Nick. I have tried to ignore him too cos I'm
ashamed of myself. He knows the thing I have with Nick.

"Can I share a table?" He asked.

I just stared at him and he says, "Don't worry I'm alone."

I nod.

Alec pulls out the chair across me and sat down with a smile. "How are you?"

"Fine. Thanks." I answered.

He takes a sip from his coffee and neither of us tried to talk anymore. I continued writing on my essay.



"About that night Savannah." He says.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

"I know you've heard everything and I feel bad about it." He says.

I bite my lip.

"I don't know why Nick is treating you this way. You clearly don't deserve this kind of... Brokenness and
ugliness." He added.

I exhale and put my pen back down. I stare at him and he looked totally sorry about what he said that
night though he didn't really say anything bad against me.

"I'm just too embarrassed now that you know I'm only screwing Nick and he's doing the same thing." I
say softly.

"Don't be embarrassed. Most college students are stuck on being just friends with benefits. The only
difference is, you're in love. I know you love him Savannah. That night when I saw those tears on your
face, I know you wanted more from what Nick is giving you but--"

"But he can't give me what I need." I continue his sentence for him.

I looked away and hear Alec exhaling heavily. "I wouldn't ask those things if I knew you were there."

I smirked and said, "I wouldn't know his answers if you knew I was there."

"But are you okay with this set up with Nick? You know you're going to hurt yourself if you keep on
doing this."

I exhale heavily, as if I'm having a hard time to breathe.



"I want to continue with whatever I have with Nick.... Even though it's hurting me."

I look back at Alec while he looks at me. He pity me. I could see from his eyes. He knows too well that
Nick won't love me. He knows him too well and that look on his eyes is breaking me.

"Why do you want this?" He asked.

"I'm a fool for him, Alec." I say.

His brows are creasing.

"I love Nick and I'll try to keep up with this though it hurts. This will end someday and before it'll end I
just want to make most of my time with him." I added.

He looks down on the table. "If you give him more time I know he'll realize that he loves you too."

I laugh humorlessly. "I think that's never gonna happen."

"Then if you think so, why do you still want to go on with this kind of thing Savannah when you know it's
never gonna happen? You're inflicting pain to your own self."

"Maybe I'm still hoping he could change. He could change for me." I say.

"Savannah, you're already a dear friend to me and trust me when I say Nick's heart is already sealed
long ago. It's already as hard as a rock now." He says.

I feel my tears filling my eyes. I bent my head down and wiped it away before it could fall down on my
cheeks.

"I know. I know he couldn't love again but still here I am hoping that he will. That he could." My voice is
shaking.



Alec stands from where he was sitting and sits down right next to me. He holds me close and I was
hugging him cos it's what I need. I need to tell someone other than Nick about this thing that's going on
between me and him cos this is so unhealthy to the both of us.

"I hope he can realize it before it's too late cos you're an amazing woman Savannah. It'll be Nick's
loss." He says to me.

I pulled myself away and he handed me a ply of tissue. I wiped my tears and he's still looking at me. It's
nice to hear at coming from Nick's best friend, he knows it's Nick's loss. I hope I'm a loss to him cos the
way he's treating me, isn't telling me I am a loss once I'll be gone.

"Why don't you take Nick less seriously? Keep it strictly physical." He says.

"I'm trying."

"Go out with another guy....who likes you." He says.

I sigh. "No guy likes me."

He laughs. "Are you kidding me? All Aries talks about when you're not around is you."

"What?"

His eyes widened. "Shit. Don't tell him I said that."

I laugh softly. "Aries is a playboy, Alec."

"He is. But I think you have this affect on him cos since that night when you saved him from getting
beaten up, all he ever asked me about was you. He's not even seeing women anymore." He says.

"He's not?" I asked.



He shakes his head. "Not anymore. I usually see him with different women every night before but after
that night when you first came at the frat party, he tried his best to stay away from women."

I paused.

"We even tried to make fun of him. Aries is a known playboy but every time a girl comes around, he
turns them down." he added.

I smirked. "I don't really know who's side you're on right now. Are you taking Nick's side or Aries'?"

He laughs. "No one's."

I exhale.

"All I'm trying to say is, don't make yourself too unavailable to other men cos of what you have with
Nick." He tells me.

I smiled at myself.

"I know Nick is my best friend but you deserve to be loved the way you should be. You're a beautiful
woman, Savannah. A lot of men could be after you and you just don't know it cos you're too focused on
Nick." He added.

I moved my head up to him and I know he is right. I'm setting myself too closed around Nick. Alec is
right, I shouldn't be taking this thing I have with Nick seriously. I need to meet other men, no sex
though, but just hanging out.

"Thanks Alec." I say.

He nods. "And don't worry, your secret with Nick is safe with me."

I smiled.



•••••

I lay on my bed, rereading the 500 word essay I made, looking for some errors and misspelled words.
Tracy went out with Clyde as always and I'm always the one left here. I put down my paper to my side
table drawer and pulled myself up from the bed. I placed a pillow behind my head as I rest against the
wall. I'm still thinking about what Alec told me. Those words still runs over my head. I know I should do
it. I shouldn't make myself too available for Nick and only him.

"Wouldn't I look like a slutty if I'm entertaining other men while I'm screwing Nick?" I asked myself.

A knock came by the door. Nick?

"Delivery!" A voice called out.

I sigh. It's not Nick.

I slipped myself off the bed and headed to the door. I didn't order anything but why is there a delivery?
Perhaps it was a mail? I reached for the knob and opened the door. A tall man with a baseball cap
turned backwards was smiling at me.

"Hi angel." He says.

I smiled back. "Hey."

Aries pulled up the paper bag and showed me. "Alec said you were a bit sad today so I thought I could
buy you your favorite ice cream."

I chuckled. "I hope there's foods in there. I'm famished." I say.

"There's chicken teriyaki and some rolls. I hope you like Japanese foods."

"I love it. Come in Aries." I say.



He walks inside and headed to the bed. I closed the door and marched my way closer to him. He starts
pulling out the foods and everything looks deliciously cute. Aries started opening the lids and handed
me chopsticks.

"I suck at this." He says while holding the chopsticks.

I smiled. "Don't worry you're not alone."

We started eating. At first he tries to learn how to hold the chopsticks but he ends up dropping his
foods back on his paper plate. I'd end up laughing at him and then he shifted to the disposable spoon
and fork.

"This is good. This is really good." I say.

"It's from my favorite Japanese restaurant."

"Then I guess it's going to be my favorite too." I smile. "Pass up the ice cream please." I added.

He started handing me one medium sized cup and we started sharing it. It was sort of melted a little bit
but melted or not it's still ice cream. It's still tasty. I'm glad Aries is here to company me, I've been kind
of a loner lately since Tracy has been busy with her researching and I've had to do other stuff related to
school too. Nick is gone again. I don't know where he is. Haven't seen him two days now. He's always
gone.

He always doesn't tell me where he goes.

"By the way, I didn't know your name was Harrison." I say.

"Yeah. As old as it sounds, I don't have a choice." He answers.



I laugh. "It's not that old. Aries is a cool nickname for Harrison. Never thought of that. I thought you
were just Aries. Though it could've been Harry."

"Too common." He says.

I smile.

"Did I ever tell you I like your curly hair on you?" He asks.

I glance at him.

"No." I say.

"Well it looks good on you."

I smile. "Thanks. I always hated my curly hair. It's too troublesome when I comb it."

He laughs.

"And did I ever tell you that I like how you wear your cap like that?" I ask.

"Do you know the reason why I always wear a cap?" He asks.

I shake my head. "There's a reason for that?"

He nods. "When I was a freshman here, the seniors cut a portion from my hair when I was asleep and
it went a little bald so I had to wear a cap to cover it."

I gaped. "No way?"

"Yes way. Since then it became my habit."

"Well you look good without a cap."



I quickly snatched his cap from him and placed it over my head. He messed up his blond hair a little bit.

"How do I look?" I ask.

"Gangstah." He teased.

I laughed. "You did not say that."

He smiles. "Want me to take you to my favorite place?"

My brows are creasing. "You have a favorite place?"

He nods.

"Everyone has. Let's go?" He says.

I smiled. "Sure."

Both of us stand from the bed and headed out of my room while he's holding our trashes and threw it
on the bin right outside the dorm. He opens the passenger door for me and I quickly climbed inside.
When he got inside as well, he started driving away.

"Is it that far?" I ask.

"Not quite. Don't worry. I'll make sure you're safe." He says.

I stared outside the window and just looked at each building that we were passing by.

I wonder where on earth is Nick tonight.

Aries and I stopped by some convenient store for some beer cos I told him to buy one pack for us. He
was shocked when I told him we could possibly need some drinks with us. Aries bought a few chips



too. He said I'm going to have fun with him tonight. Finally we arrived right in front of an apartment
building.

"Why are we here?" I asked.

Holy hell what's he gonna do to me?

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SFTC:

Pieces - Andrew Belle


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