Chapter 61: 61 Pag-ibig

Pag-ibig

Translation: Love

Origin: Filipino

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"I love Savannah, sir. I can't stay away from her." Nick added.

I have never heard such beautiful words coming from Nick's lips. I have never thought he would say
that. I never expected he'd say that in front of me and in front of my dad. I couldn't even look away from
his gaze because I felt it when he said that he loved me. I know he means it. I know he loves me.

"Go to bed, Savannah. I've had enough for tonight. We'll talk tomorrow." My dad tells me but didn't say
anything to Nick.

I watch my dad walk away from us and headed out of the kitchen. My heart is pounding harder and
harder inside my chest now that I'm alone with Nick. Both of us were quiet. Both of us were still
standing next to each other. Both of us obviously didn't know what to say and how to react to what he
just said out. I wanna ask him if he means it. I wanna ask him he does love me and he didn't just say it
cos he needs to cover up for that kiss.

"Let me walk you up to your room?"

I moved my head to Nick and he was looking at me. His blue eyes is so beautiful and I wanna kiss him
again.

"Did you... Mean it Nick?" I finally asked.



He bent his head down. "Let me walk you up to your room Savannah."

I sigh. I'm sad about what he answered me cos now it's clear to me that he just said that out cos my
dad caught us kissing. He obviously doesn't love me. He can never learn to love me. Nick will never
ever fall in love again.

Both of us went out of the kitchen and he walked me to my room. I was quiet and so was he. We both
didn't talk to each other until we reached outside of my room. I opened the door and he didn't even tell
me goodnight. He just watched me go inside and once he made sure I was in, he started walking back
to his room. I wanted him to sleep with me. I wanted to wake up the following morning with him by my
side. I wanted to make sure that he won't leave tomorrow. I slowly closed the door and threw myself to
bed. I'm so mad at him. I'm super mad.

Why does he need to say it when I'm around, knowing that it will only hurt me if he didn't mean it
anyways.

I tried to go to sleep but I can't. I kept closing my eyes but I really can't sleep. I lay on my bed for twenty
goddamn minutes straight, forcing myself to sleep but it's no use. My mind is filled with Nick and those
words he said. He sounded like he did mean it but why can't he say it to me? All of a sudden my tears
were streaming out from the corners of my eyes without me knowing it. I hate it when I cry for some
same reason. I know Nick couldn't love me but why am I still hoping that he can and that he will? And
why does he always make my hopes up?

My phone suddenly vibrated on top of my side table drawer. I reached for it. A message from Nick. I
wanted to ignore it but a part of me wants to read it now.

I gave in anyways.

Are you still up? - Nick



I wanted to reply but then I don't want to face him right now. I'm crying again and I don't want him to
know that I still cry cos of him cos even if I cry a thousand times, I know for sure nothing will change.
Even if my eyes will dry up and tears won't fall anymore, I'm sure as hell that he will never ever learn to
love me.

My phone vibrated on my hand again.

I'm outside your room. Open your door. Please. - Nick

My heart skipped a beat. I quickly pulled myself up and headed to my door silently. I stood right before
door as I reach for the knob. I was in doubts but I wanna know what he came here for. I wanna hear
him out even if this will hurt me. I know what he's gonna say. I know he will tell me he's sorry for what
he said to my dad and that he didn't mean to say it.

I sigh.

What are you doing Savannah? Why do you always let Nick hurt you?

My phone vibrated once more.

Please. We need to talk. - Nick

I finally twisted the knob and took a deep breath in before finally opening the door. Nick's height hovers
over me while his head was bent down low. His arm was resting on my doorway while his shirt was
pulled up, showing his v. He was barefoot. Slowly, he pulled his head up to me and looked into my
eyes.

"What do you want Nick?" I asked, as if I'm not distracted by his v-line.

"Did I wake you up?"



I shake my head.

"Will you let me in?" He asked.

I sigh as I widen the door for him. He walks inside the room and I headed to the foot of my bed. I watch
him as he close the door and then faced me.

"About a while ago, I just wanna say--"

"You don't have to say anything Nick." I cut him off. "I know you didn't mean it. And if you just came
here to tell me you're sorry, please don't. You really don't have to be sorry."

Both of us went quiet again and I couldn't even look at him in his eyes cos I feel my tears gathering
around my eyelids again. All of a sudden he was already standing before me. He's already hugging
me. He's already wrapping his arms around me. My tears are falling... And more tears are coming out.
It's not stopping. I was holding it back a while ago but I was unsuccessful. I'm crying again.

"Why are you crying?" He asked.

"Cos I know you didn't mean to say it Nick. Why are you still here? Why--"

He cupped both of my cheeks and kissed me out of the blue, cutting me off of what I was gonna say to
him. He's kissing me deeply but passionately, I let him kiss me. I didn't move but then a few seconds
passed I gave in. I kissed him back while my tears were falling down on my cheeks.

"I meant it Savannah." He say breathlessly as he pulled himself away.

His forehead resting on my forehead.

"I meant it when I said I loved you." He adds.

Oh my god.



My eyes moved up to him and I couldn't believe what I just heard. My tears are filling up my eyes again
and now happy tears are falling.

"I love you Savannah." He says while wiping my tears.

I feel like my heart is going to explode like a time bomb. I wanna scream my lungs out. I wanna run
around the house. I wanna pull my hair. I wanna go crazy cos Nick just confessed to me. Nick just told
me he loved me. Nick loves me.

"Say it again." I tell him.

He kissed my lips again. "I love you with all that's left in me."

My smile is growing wide and wide. I threw myself to him and just hugged him as tight as I could. His
arms are now holding around my body. His hands on my back. We're cheek to cheek as I feel him
lifting me off of the ground.

"I love you Nick. I love you." I say.

He put me back down as I pulled my head up to him. He pushed my hair off my face as he smiled at
me calmly.

"I tried my hardest to convince myself that I wasn't falling for you. Every single time we are together
and when I am around you, the things I would feel would terribly frighten me cos I always end up
thinking about the future and how we would end up, how you would end up if you're with me." He says.

I listen to him intently.

"I went eight years of thinking that I had finally controlled my mind, my life and my heart. I thought
nothing could ever hurt me again after what I had with Catherine. I thought I won't fall for anyone
anymore. I thought I was capable of not falling in love again and I was sure I won't. Though it was hard



being me, I tried my hardest. Then you came along. You changed my game plan. You didn't ruin it but..
You were my shot back to life." He added.

I smiled at him as my tears filled my eyes. I couldn't help but hear these words from Nick. I have been
expecting it so much.

"When I am around you, I always end up realizing that I am undeniably in love with you but that's when
I also push you away or I'll be gone for days without seeing you cos I was filled with guilt and fear that's
why I'd visit Catherine's tomb and talk to her about you." He says.

He sighs heavily.

"I'm sorry I always push you away. It's what I do when I'm afraid." He adds.

"What are you afraid of Nick?" I asked.

"I'm afraid about not being worthy to have you. I felt like I don't deserve you cos of my past and cos of
what I've done. It even became worst when I found out your brother was Cameron. He came from an
extremely rich family and my past is wrecked. But you were my source of life and my happiness
Savannah even though I don't deserve happiness at all."

I held his cheek cos I can feel that he's trying not to cry. "Nick, you deserve happiness again. You
deserve me. I don't care if you had a criminal record or you went to jail. I don't care about your past. I
loved you cos of you and what you showed me. Beneath those criticisms you get, I know you're a good
and a thoughtful man."

I smiled at him. "They don't see what I see when I'm alone with you."

He leaned closer and kissed my forehead.



"I'm so sorry it took me so long before I could tell you about this. I just wanted to get myself ready and
prepare the right words to say to you." He says.

I smiled at him.

"You said the perfect words Nick." I tell him.

"My thank you wont be enough for you not giving up on me. You saw something in what we have even
if what we have was so ugly and you didn't gave up on us even after all those times I hurt you. All those
times I left you. All those times I made you feel worthless. And that means so much more to me than
anything that anyone has ever done."

A smile creeps into my face.

"I'm all yours now Savannah. Me and my horrible past are all yours." He says.

I tiptoed and kissed his lips longer while he kisses me back. "I love you so much."

He smiles at me. "I love you too Savannah."

We kissed again as I feel him walking to my bed and putting me down slowly on top of the mattress.
He's over me and we smiled at each other quickly before his eyes were wanders around my face.

"This is your parents house." He reminds me with a smile on his face.

"I don't care. It's Christmas anyways. I need my Christmas gift. You need to give me my Christmas gift."

He laughs.

"I promise I won't scream." I say.

He kissed the tip off nose. "I love you."



We kissed again while we start pulling off our clothes and threw it to the floor. He tears the foil open
and placed the condom on his hard length while he keeps kissing on my neck. I feel his tip swirling on
my entrance before putting it inside of him. I moaned softly as I hear him shushing, reminding me I
shouldn't be loud.

I gasp.

His movement is slow and sensual that I could feel his tip until the last end of his length inside me. He
looks at me as I loose control beneath him. His eyes doesn't look away, he's looking at me eagerly as if
he's examining my face.

"Don't... Argh... Look at me like that." I say as I control my moan.

He smiles, "Like what?" He says while he's still moving inside me.

"Like how you.. argh.. look at me right now. It's making me... Conscious." I say.

He leans forward and kissed my forehead while he's still thrusting me.

"I wanna look at you while I make love to you now that you're mine." He tells me.

I smile as I hold on to his biceps and I feel him a little bit picking up his pace. "Oh God.." I tugged the
back of his hair.

"I love you Savannah." He says to me.

His lips landed on my mouth and kissed me hungrily but I could feel his love onto my mouth. His
movement is constant, but there's a second when he pulls it all out then slams inside me that makes
me claw his back. I bite my lip hard as I try to fight myself from moaning. I shut my eyes tight as I feel
myself reaching my climax.



"I love you." He repeats those beautiful words into my ears while both of us reach our climax.

I whimper as he gains speed.

"I fucking love you Nick." I kissed his lips briefly while we both held onto each other's hand.

•••••

I woke up feeling all light. I woke up feeling happy all of a sudden cos of what happened last night. My
naked body on top of Nick's bare chest. His arm wrapped around me while the other arm was holding
onto my hand. I moved my head to my wall clock, it was still eight in the morning and I remember it was
already Christmas Day. I moved my head up and noticed that Nick was already up.

"Morning." He says groggily.

I smiled. "How long have you been up?"

"Two hours ago."

My eyes narrowed. "You didn't even wake me up? You were planning on leaving me, huh?"

He chuckles under his throat. "If I was planning on leaving you, I could've done it two hours ago."

He pulled our hands entwined with each other then kissed the back of my hand.

"Relax baby." He says.

I smiled. "I like when you call me that."

"I prefer calling you mommy." He teases.



I pinched his side that makes him squint his eyes then laughs anyways. "Good morning babe." He
says.

"Good morning my very handsome boyfriend." I tell him. I moved up close to his face and we kissed
each other.

"I just hope I don't have any morning breath." I say.

He laughs. "No. You still taste good."

Suddenly a knock came on the door that made us both jump. "Savannah, get up."

"Did you lock the door last night?" I asked Nick.

Both of us stared at each other while the door opens wide and before we could move out from the bed,
Cameron was already standing before us. His eyes widened and Nick quickly pulled the sheet to cover
our bare bodies as we sit down on the bed together.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

Cameron sighs and looks down on the floor. "Get dressed Savannah and get your ass downstairs."

He shuts the door and it left me and Nick quiet as hell. I moved my head to him and he was looking at
me impassively.

"Your brother is seriously gonna kill me now." He says.

I laugh and rested my head over his shoulder. "Don't worry. I won't let him."

I kissed his lips briefly. "Are you still leaving me here all alone today?" I asked.

We looked at each other as I start pouting my lips. "It's Christmas." I added.



He held the back of my neck and kissed my forehead. "No. I ain't going nowhere today cos you won't
let me and I don't want to leave you now you're all mine."

I smiled as I hugged him tight. "Let's get dressed now. It's my family tradition to wake up early on
Christmas Day to go to our rest house."

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SFTC:

In Love Again - Colbie Caillat


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