Chapter 76: 76 Disaster

Disaster

- a sudden or great misfortune or failure

Origin: Middle French and Old Latin

76

On cliché situations, women would be in tears cos of extreme happiness. I mean, seeing your boyfriend
kneeling before you asking you to marry him. Any girl's dream. Women would be gasping and would
totally cry all out.

But I'm not crying cos of the reason that I'm happy cos he's asking me to marry him, I'm crying cos I
pity Damon even more now that he asked me about marriage and I feel bad for what I've done. We
didn't talk about this before. He didn't give me any hint to marry him. As I summer town my scattered
thoughts, I reckoned that I had sex with Nick behind Damon's back, it just makes me even foolish.

I don't wanna marry you Damon.

I took a deep breath in as I wipe my tears. Seeing Damon kneeling before me. Seeing this man who
loves me so much asking for my hand but I'm thinking about breaking up with him tonight cos I want to
be with the man who always leaves me behind.

I stare at Damon looking up to me, waiting for my reply. He's waiting and he's wanting for me to say
yes. I stare at everyone around us and all eyes were on me. All eyes were on us. I look back at Damon
with his handsome smile.

Why do I couldn't love you the way you love me Damon?

"Yes." I say weakly.



Damon quickly pulled himself up and hugged me. I don't want to marry him but I only said that cos I pity
him. In front of all these people, I don't want Damon to get embarrassed. He prepared a lot of things for
me, he bought me this lovely dress, he set up this magnificent dinner date and he spent a short
vacation with me cos I told him I needed it. Plus I don't want to look like a bad girlfriend in front of these
people. Damon spent too much for one night. Even if I pay him everything he paid for, it wouldn't be
enough cos he loves me so much and I couldn't pay him back that.

"I love you so much." He grabbed both of my cheeks and kissed me briefly.

"I... I love you too."

Later that night, Damon had fallen asleep on the bed after we had sex. I slipped myself out from the
bed grabbed something to cover my naked body. I stand on our room's balcony, hugging myself with
my long sweater as I look out to the resort's view at night with a glass of whiskey on my hand. I sigh
heavily as I think deeply about Nick and the fact that I said yes to Damon asking me for marriage. Now
that I think about it, I shouldn't have said yes.

This vacation should help me on not thinking about Nick but I always end up thinking about him and
those words he said to me. I'm still hoping we'll get back together someday but how is it gonna happen
when he's already married and I'm already engaged.

I pour myself another glass of whiskey as I try to simmer down my own thoughts and what just
happened a while ago. I know I should stop thinking about Nick because I have Damon with me and
I've been happy with Damon lately but now that Nick shows up again, I'm letting him invade my space
once more. I'm letting him break down my walls that's already cracked.

I thought I've had enough about all those pain and betrayal that Nick caused me. I thought I've learned
my lesson from what he has done. I thought I won't let him hurt me again. I thought that would be the



last time I would fall for Nick and anything he tells me. I thought I've moved on, but why am I still
running back to him after all these years?

"He's married Savannah." I tell myself.

I take a quick drink. "He's fucking married. Don't you get that?"

I sigh inwardly. "And you're already engaged."

I take a long drink from my glass.

"Don't tell me you'll wait for him again? Don't you think you've done enough for Nick? Don't you pity
yourself?" I asked.

I pulled my phone out and stared at my home screen wallpaper, a photo of me and Damon taken from
weeks ago. I love Damon. I do love Damon, I know I love Damon but I love Nick more than him and I
don't know why I'm being too unfair to Damon. Damon has been there for me. Why can't I just love him
much as I loved Nick?

I scanned through my directory, I searched through Nick's name on it. I stared at his old number that I
never deleted cos I was hoping he would call. Despite the things he did, I'm still waiting for him to call
me. How pathetic is that, right? I'm sure he changed it now. It's been so long since I texted him and he
tried to reach me.

I feel so desperate to hear Nick's voice and just talk to him. Blame the drinks I had on my hand for
making me do this.

Calling Nick...

Slowly I pulled it close to my ear and to my surprise it was ringing. I'm listening to his phone ringing.
He's still using the same number. He didn't change it. But I quickly ended the call before he could



answer it. I exhaled heavily and thought to myself how stupid I am to still do this behind Damon's back.
I started massaging my temples before taking a long drink from my glass.

All of a sudden, I feel my phone vibrating on my hand. I take a look at it and the longer I stare at it, my
heart feels like leaping out of the balcony.

Nick calling...

I gulped.

I let it ring for a while cos I loved seeing Nick's name appearing on my phone again that he's calling me
after so many years. I finally caved in, biting my lower lip.

"Hello." He speaks.

For the first time in a very long time, he tried to call me. Hearing his groggy manly voice makes my
heart flutter.

"Savannah." He calls out my name.

I smile sheepishly. I feel like I was in high school again hearing him call out my name over the phone.

"You called. Why?" He asked.

His voice sounded as if I woke him up. I could imagine him with messy hair while he's rubbing his eyes
as he holds his phone near his ear. I could imagine him with nothing on himself on top of a bed. God,
what a view would that be.

"Savannah?" He calls out my name again.

"Nick." I whisperingly say.



"You didn't come to work today." He says to me.

My brows furrowed. "How.."

I cleared my throat. "How did you know?"

"I know what runs around in the company Savannah. The manager said you left her an email that
you're on a vacation." He says.

I remained silent.

"Why? Where are you?" He asked right away.

"Far from everything. I need to get away from people related to what happened to us."

He sighs.

Both of us remained silent.

"Well..." He speaks. "Your manager is mad at you for leaving a note on short notice. But don't worry, I
handled it a while ago."

I nod. "Thanks."

"You can come back anytime you want. But don't be gone for too long." He says.

I didn't answer him.

"Cos I'll miss you." He adds.

I bite my lower lip.

"I still love you Nick." I blurted out.



Curse this whiskey on my hand for making me tell the truth but I don't really give a damn anymore. I
don't care about what I'm going to say to him cos he knows I still love him and I'm sure he can still feel
it after what happened to us the other night.

"That night when we did it, I know we still love each other Nick. I tried so hard to force myself that I'm
over you, but after all these years I always end up thinking about you." I added.

I sigh heavily but he's just listening to me. "I always end up missing you. I always end up loving you
even more."

He sighs.

"But it's different now. We're grown-ups. We're adults. We're not those college kids who used to just
fuck around cos we're horny as hell." I laugh humorlessly. "You're married and I've found a man who
loves me."

"But do you love him?" He asked.

I bite my lower lip hard as I feel my tears gathering while shaking my head sideways in response to
Nick.

"Do you love him more than me, Savannah?" He asked again with a crooked voice.

"No." I answered.

I take a deep breath. "But Nick please don't make things hard for me."

"As much as I want to go back to the past to make it all right between you and me, I would. But you
ruined it. And it's too late now. We can't change what has happened. And you asking me to wait for
you, is not even certain for me. What if you'll leave me again? You always do that." I tell him.



"Savannah I promise you this will be the last time I ask you for this. One last time. Savannah please."
He begs.

"Nick I've always waited for you, even when I knew there's nothing left to wait for. I still did." I choked a
sob. "But all you ever did was leave me."

Both of us got quiet. Of course I want to be with him, but this time I'm choosing Damon. I'm choosing
the right one that I know who's not gonna leave me.

"I'm happy to hear that you still love me Nick and you know I love you too. I'll always love you. But this
time, I'm not waiting for you anymore." I hate to say it but I had to.

I choke a sob as I close my eyes shut.

"Savannah... Please." He begs.

I shake my head, I'm not giving in Nick. Not this time.

"Choose me instead. Please." He begs again.

I open my eyes as I see everything in a blur. My tears are gathering behind my lids and it's falling
down, soaking my cheeks. "I wish you happiness with Dakota. I wish in time you'll learn to love her."

"I can't love anyone anymore if it's not you." He speaks.

I pressed my lips together as I bent my head down low. I don't want to get engage to Damon after
hearing those words from Nick's lips but I have to do this for me. Maybe in future's time I will forget
about Nick and have to start a family with Damon.

"Savannah?" Damon's voice called out.



I wiped my tears right away and ended my call with Nick. I feel two hands holding my arms and Damon
turned me around to face him. He stares at me eagerly and I just wish he doesn't notice that I was
crying.

"Why are you still up?" He asked.

"I... couldn't sleep." I say.

"Is there something wrong?"

I shake my head. "Nothing. I just couldn't sleep cos I still can't believe you asked me to marry you." I
lied.

A smile lights up his face. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. "We'll be
preparing everything together don't worry about it. I'll let you have your dream wedding."

It won't be a dream wedding if Nick isn't the groom.

I sigh inwardly and nodded.

•••••

When we got back home after our quick vacation in Bahamas, I stayed in my apartment the entire day.
Damon went back to work and he said some things about planning the wedding within this week. He
was so excited for it but I was still sulking when I think of how I said yes to Damon. I regretted the day I
agreed to be married to him even though I know he's a nice guy, my happiness is still with Nick.

A ring came to my doorbell and cursed when I heard it cos I was too lazy to get out of the bed today. I
cursed on my way to the door and once I opened it, I saw my entire family standing before me. Ingrid



was smiling at me while Cameron was holding her shoulders. Mom and dad were standing side by side
next to each other.

"Annie!" Ingrid chimes as she hugs my thighs and I kissed the top of her head.

Mom quickly hugged me when she saw me and I hugged her back briefly.

"I missed you my princess." She says.

"I missed you too mom."

I widened the door for them and they entered one by one. I followed them to the couch but I never
dared to talk to dad nor made eye contact to him.

"What brings you all here?" I asked.

"Well.." mom trailed off.

"We.." she gazes at my dad. "..Thought that we could pay you a visit after what happened the other
day."

I gaze at my dad and all of us went silent. I didn't want to talk about it because I'm still mad at my own
dad.

"How about dinner outside?" Cameron quickly recovered for on the dead air we were all having.

"I just got home. I don't feel like going out." I say.

"Mom can cook!" Ingrid chimed.

Ugh, Ingrid is so innocent that my heart is breaking about the fact that she doesn't know what's
happening.



I sigh as I gaze at my watch. 6:17PM

"I'll change." I say as I march my way to my room.

Once I was done, all of us headed out of my apartment and drove to the fancy restaurant that mom
adores. All of us settled down the table while I was waiting for my fiancé to come and join us. I haven't
told them about my engagement with Damon. I wanted to tell them with Damon here with me. It wasn't
something I was happy and exited to tell them about anyways. Dad will be the only one happy to hear
it.

"I'm sorry I'm late." Damon acknowledges his arrival as he exchanged cheek to cheek kiss with my
mom and hugged my dad briefly then shakes hands with my brother.

He takes a seat next to me then he kissed my cheek briefly. "Hi." He says.

I smiled with tight lip. "Hello."

I moved closer to his ears, "I haven't told them about us. I was waiting for you. I wanted to tell them
together."

He nods and smiles.

When the foods were served, dad, Cameron and Damon were all talking about work. I was sitting down
on my chair quietly as I watch them. I wish they would be like this with Nick. I wish they entertained
Nick this way years ago. I wish they were all nice to Nick. I wish Nick was here instead of Damon but
he's not.

"Did you hear me Savannah?" Damon catches my attention.

"What were we talking about again?" I asked. "Sorry. I was zoning out."



Damon smiles at me. "I said we were going to say something to them."

I nod. "Oh yeah. We are."

I stared at my hands under the table with the huge ass diamond ring on my ring finger. I took a deep
breath in and pulled my head back up to face them.

"Savannah and I.." Damon trails.

Mom covers her mouth and I think she's anticipating for Damon to say that I'm pregnant. Sorry mom.
You're not having a grandchild yet.

"We're getting married." He says as he looks at me. I smiled ruefully and showed them my engagement
ring.

Mom gasped and dad looked joyous as hell. Of course I expected how he'd take it. Cameron looks at
me impassively and Ingrid didn't look happy about what she heard. I smiled at her.

"This causes a celebration!" Dad chimes happily.

Dad ordered a bottle of the most expensive wine in the restaurant and he was talking about how happy
he is cos of our engagement. I think mom and Cameron noticed that I wasn't happy or I wasn't excited
about it.

"When are you planning the wedding Savannah?" Dad asked me.

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SFTC:

I'm A Mess - Ed Sheeran






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