Chapter 189: He Would Only Be with Nicole in His Life

Although Nicole agreed on it, he was not very happy. He could felt the reluctance in her heart, but she
was compromising for him.



That she, like five years ago, she had no sense of self, only relying on Samuel. Once, he enjoyed such
a time because he felt loved by a woman was a kind of glory. But now, he also fell in love with her, only
to find that it was hopeless and pity for a love of their own to lost themselves.



Samuel didn't move, which surprised Nicole.



"What's wrong?"



"You don't need to care about me. You can do whatever you want to do. I want a wife, a wife with your
own personality. You don't need to give you up. Whatever you want to do, I will accompany you.’



Samuel said in low voice with hoarseness, and Nicole was moved.



She suddenly realized that her efforts might not be as great as she thought.





Five years ago, she had been following Samuel and looked at his back, fantasizing when he could stop
to look at her, but she never realized that this kind of love was abnormal.



If you want to someone to fall in love with you, you have to let him see your virtue but not lose yourself.



She was soulless and thoughtless five years ago. She did everything that was to let Samuel to love her.



Once upon a time, she was the God's favored one in school and the faculty. She was also popular in
school. But since she saw Samuel, she fell in love with him and completely lost herself.



In retrospect, there seemed to be few things worth remembering these past eight years.



She didn't actively strengthen herself and was not as powerful as Samuel was. She was just idling her
time away humbly.



How could she be the match for Samuel?



As such, how could she be worth of standing by his side and state that she was Samuel's wife?





He was born into a rich family. There were so many women that he could choose. Should he be held
responsible for her love just because she loved him?



No!



She did not have any qualification to let Samuel take responsibility for her.



Nicole didn't care whether it was guilt or love? She just knew that it was a chance to stay with him.



No matter how bad she had been, and no matter what she had missed, now she had a great chance to
start again with Samuel.



After figuring out everything, she came to realize that she was incompetent before. If she had figured it
out earlier, she wouldn't have ended up like this with Samuel.



Thanks to the fire five years ago, she didn't lose Samuel. And she also appreciated herself. Although
five years had passed, she still loved Samuel. Nicole was even more grateful for the current disaster,
which made her cherish her lover more.





Nicole had never known better than now what she needed.



She wanted to stay with Samuel.



She wanted not only to stay with him but to gain his heart, his love and the rest of his life.



But she was not going to asking for it. In life, no one could give everything for others for no reason,
even if that person was the one he loved most. One must rely on himself to become strong enough to
be the perfect match for his lover.



She signed, but she was clear what she wanted.



She turned to look at the scene outside the window. She suddenly felt the sky was blue and the sun
was warm. It was beautiful.



How could she refuse all this?





She slightly smiled and felt relax.



Samuel was confused as well as fascinated.



He had not seen Nicole smile for a long time. At least, she had been repressing herself and living
cautiously since she came back.



But right now, she smiled.



Suddenly, it seemed that the sky was clearing up.



The gloom in Samuel's heart began to disperse.



Samuel didn't know what Nicole thought clearly, but this moment of peace and relief let him relax.



He sat next to Nicole and said in low voice, "Do you need a psychologist?"





Nicole shook her head and said, "A psychologist can only enlighten me. If I don’t want to face it, it
would be useless no matter how you help me. Samuel, thanks.”



"Thanks?"



"Yes, thank you. I am grateful that you didn't give me up and fell in love with me. No matter how much
guilt you have in your love for me, at this moment, I take it seriously. I'm going to ask you again. Do you
want to accompany me for the rest of your life? No matter how difficult the future is, and no matter who
will oppose us, you are always with me.”



Nicole looked at Samuel happily.



He seemed to be looking at a beautiful starry sky, and he thought her eyes were deep and charming.



He took Nicole's hand and put it on his chest, where the heart beat like thunder and shook. His warm
temperature followed Nicole and filled her all over little by little.

It was warm and hot, like the spring.



It was love.





After eight years, she could experience love again. The difference was that eight years ago she was
unrequited love, now they fell in love with each other.



Samuel looked at her and seriously said, "I will accompany you in my life.”



"You can't regret your decision!"



Nicole smiled confidently.



She was gaunt. But at that moment, he seemed to see her as she had been six months before.



Nicole was the best painter in the whole art department at that time. He still remembered the moment
when he first saw Nicole won the first prize.



She was young and confident at that time.



Because of that moment, Samuel remembered this girl called Nicole.





Later, they actually happened in the hotel was caught in the bed of the thing. Because of Nicole,
Samuel did not have much rejection.



The young girl, with his indifference, might be able to bring him a bit of fun.



At that time, he decided his marriage.



Although he claimed that he was responsibility for his action, he actually knew he was in love with the
girl.



But after marriage, Nicole changed. She was subservient, took him as her master and even lost her
self-confidence.



Samuel once thought that he might have mistaken the person and married the wrong one, but what
could he do.



Nicole loved him and did not do wrong. Did he divorce? Was he going to divorce her?





Therefore, Samuel no longer talked to Nicole. Although he knew that she had been paying to lose
herself, he could not bear her. However, after that fire five years ago, he found Nicole lost herself, but
her love still penetrated into his life and irradiated into his soul.



Perhaps there was also the death of the child, which made him guilty. Now seeing Nicole again, he felt
her confident. He suddenly felt he was in love again.



Half a year, they did a lot of wrong things. But at this moment, they stayed with each other. Even a look
in their eyes gave them special warmth.



Samuel held Nicole and whispered, "Do you know? The first time, when I saw you, I thought anyone
could not compare with you and you were so great. But in these eight years, I never saw your
confidence. And I think it was our marriage that depressed you. But now, I know you can overcome
yourself, right?”



Nicole was curious and asked, "Didn't you meet me at a party for the first time?”



"The first time I met you was when you won the prize.”





Nicole was surprised.



It turned out that their first acquaintance was so brilliant.



Nicole smiled and was satisfied.



"It is a good thing we didn't meet for the first time at a party, otherwise I will be shameful.’



Samuel gently embraced her, softly said, "If we had met for the first time, no matter whose daughter
you were, I would not have married.”



"What have I done in these eight years?”



"The old days are gone. Our future will be better. I believe our daughter will have a successful surgery,
and our son will be found. Joseph will grow up happily. Our days will be better and better.”



Samuel did not shy away from talking about Lucas's disappearance.





Their child was missing. It was hard to find a child. They are family and need to share the pain together.



Nicole was sad.



There was no any new for Lucas's disappearance, which was bad news for her. But she knew that the
important thing was to heal herself.



If she could not support herself, she could not continue to go for their children and Samuel.



Nicole signed, "Do you want to know what happened to me?”



"If you don't want to say, don't force yourself. I always stay with you when you want to talk to me. I will
never change my love for you.”



Nicole was moved and took a deep breath to say, "I will tell you. May be it will help me heal.”


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