Chapter 200: Only Death Could Make Her Feel Relieved

The next morning, Hayden woke up when the sky was already bright. A ray of sunlight from the window
shone on her face. She subconsciously raised her hand to cover the sunlight for a moment, then sat
up.

There was a slight squeaking sound coming from the outside of the car.

“What are you doing?”

Hayden got out of the car and looked at Joseph who stood in front of the frontal tank of the car fiddling
with a plastic pipe. She was a bit stunned.

Joseph looked at her.

“I am refueling the car.”

A white tube connected the two cars’ fuel tanks and transmitted the gas with a gobbling sound.

Hayden’s car broke down while Joseph’s car ran out of fuel, so he could only use the resources
temporarily.

“Hey? What the hell.”

After Hayden understood what he was trying to do, she glanced at him, “It’s quite weird. Last time
these two cars were still far away from each other, how come they are so near together now?”

Joseph looked at her again, “A shepherd passed by here in the morning and he helped me to push the
car over here.”

“Really? The people here are very nice,”

“I gave him a thousand Yuan.”



Hearing his words, Hayden shut her mouth and could not help but frown.

Why did she feel that Joseph was so angry this morning? He looked like she was the one who irritated
him. Did he drink the petrol?

Lowering his head, Joseph fixed the tube. He wiped his hands and straightened up his waist.

“If we drive for thirty miles, we will reach Sea View Town which you are going to. It is not too far. Have
some food first, there are moon cakes and water in the car.

“I am not hungry.” Hayden shook her head. “It is only thirty miles. Let me treat you to breakfast when
we reach there. It is said that the fish congee there is very delicious.”

Joseph who looked unhappy previously smiled, “Okay.”

Hayden felt a bit blur about the things that happened last night. She only knew that she did not drink
any wine nor anything else, perhaps she became a bit dull-witted after being blown by the cold breeze.

She only knew that they became reconciled in bewilderment.

Since Joseph who was a president of a company already apologized to her, she would not be bothered
with him.

After refueling the car, they set off along the road to Sea View Town.

When they drove for ten kilometers to the foot of the mountain, their phones finally had a signal.

“Shit, so many missed calls.”

Hayden looked at missed calls from Alayna on her phone and felt a bit nervous as she knew that she
would be scolded by her for sure.



Then she saw that there were missed calls from Kevin and called him after she hesitated for a moment.

Before she thought of what she wanted to say, Kevin picked up the phone on the spot.

“Hello? Is that Hayden?

“Yes, I am…” Hayden could not recognize the voice on the other end of the phone as Kevin, as it was
hoarse like a duck whose neck had been stepped on. “Kevin, we are fine now. Joseph is with me, sorry
to have bothered you…”

“Did Alayna have depression before this?”

Kevin’s abrupt voice interrupted Hayden’s voice directly.

Both ends of the phone were very quiet all of a sudden.

“What’s wrong? Why do you ask that?” Hayden looked serious and tried to make her tone sound calm.

The other end was silent for a few seconds, and she heard Kevin’s voice with a sobbing tone.

“She fainted in front of me last night and when she woke up, she looked like a different person. She
said she was a knight. She took the doctor’s stethoscope and said it was her sword…”

Hearing Kevin’s intermittent description, Hayden was thunderstruck. Her mind was blank for a while
before she regained her consciousness, “Her depression broke out.”

Her concise sentence answered Kevin’s initial doubt.

Alayna had very serious depression.

That was the reason that she had been playing around for so many years, the reason that she
sincerely devoted so much affection to others but did not dare to keep them, and why she was wildly in



love with others but did not progress further. This was the side of her that was not known and never
understood nor guessed by anyone.

After hanging up the phone, Hayden let out a long sigh.

She held her breath in her heart for a long time. When she let it out, she did not feel more comfortable
either.

She explained in a few words about her symptoms when she was having depression, and finally, she
told Kevin, “Please take care of her for two days. I will go back immediately after I finish settling things
here.”

Joseph didn’t ask her anything. He only accelerated the speed of the car, but thirty kilometers was quite
a distance and they would not arrive there instantly.

Hayden leaned back in her chair and kept silent for a long time, “At first I thought that this secret will be
kept inside my heart for a long time, but now it seems that it is better to tell you and you can tell Kevin.”

“Yes.” Joseph was holding the steering wheel. His long and slender fingers were very good-looking. His
attitude was indifferent and looked like an outsider as if he was not curious to ask what she was talking
about.

That’s why Hayden was at ease to tell him about the story.

“Alayna’s depression broke out twice. The first time was when she was fifteen years old. She was in
grade seven at that time. Her parents divorced, and she followed her mother, who remarried to a well-
dressed university professor…”

Alayna passed her childhood unhappily. Her parents quarrelled all day, and she spent more than a
decade in such a life. That’s why she was in favour of her parent's divorce, but she just did not expect



that her parents’ divorce would just push her from a pit of fire to an abyss.

Her stepfather was considered young and talented. He got the career grand slam at the age of forty.
However, he would go inside her room to rape her when his wife was not at home.

“I have not seen Alayna’s depression broke out before. However, she had told me some of the
symptoms of her depression. When it was serious, she would at first fantasize that she was the brave
warrior who fought the evil dragon to save the princess and she had a sword to wander around. She
would also be afraid of all of the opposite sex in front of her, and could not sleep all night long.”

When Hayden was telling Joseph the story, she deliberately omitted part of the story. However, Joseph
who was intelligent should be able to guess the root cause of Alayna’s depression, which nasty things
that she experienced.

“At the later stage, it would be the stage that every depressed patient would experience. She would
want to kill herself, as she didn’t feel that there was anything in this world that made her want to live.
Only death could make her feel relieved. At this time, she wouldn’t listen to anything else but needed
someone to accompany and watch her whole day long.”

Even a toothpaste could become a tool for her to commit suicide.

“There are quite a few tattoos on Alayna’s body, covering up all the wounds before this.”

Hayden said with a sobbing tone already, “She was such a girl who would rescue me so bravely when I
was drugged in a foreign bar. Who would have thought that she would have such a disease?”

“Is that the reason why she rejected Kevin?”

“Isn’t that reasonable enough?”



Hayden closed her eyes and wiped her tears with her head down, “No one could withstand what she
had experienced.”

Joseph was a bit sad hearing her story and he sighed. He smoothly drew two tissues from the side and
handed them over to Hayden.

“Now it’s too late to say anything.”

In this situation, Hayden was afraid that it was also impossible for Kevin to let go of her.


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